Yeah. That’s me.
Every. Damn. Year.
I felt disappointed when I found an online list I created this time last year of all the things I wanted to do in 2014 and only accomplished one of them. To be fair, it was a big thing on my list but I put it on my list after I already knew it was happening – move to Australia on the work and holiday visa.
This was, of course, a big accomplishment and I’m living in Australia as I write this, as it had always been a dream and goal of mine to travel long-term. So perhaps, I’m being a little too hard on myself. Or perhaps I’m not being hard enough on myself?
Second on my list was to build a freelance writing career. I figured “Hey, I have a Journalism degree, so yeah, let’s do it!” And guess what? I never did it.
I never even tried.
I focused all of my energy on travel that I didn’t give writing any time aside from the occasional blog post. And maybe it’s because had about 20 other things on that list.
Learn how to cook
Write a book
Become an yoga instructor
Travel the world
Create a documentary
Learn how film equipment works so I can make a documentary
Run a 5k
Learn how to run so I can run a 5k
Meet Mariah Carey
Ride an elephant
See? Overwhelming, right? How can I write while thinking about riding a freaking elephant or when running after Mariah Carey’s Car?
When I decided to make travel my main goal to focus on in 2013/2014, I saw it as a now or never moment. I have to do it now or I’ll never do it. It wasn’t easy, but no one said it would be. It also wasn’t impossible. And many of the things that I thought were difficult, weren’t as difficult as I thought they were in my head (being inside of my head is a very dangerous thing, FYI). I also had a friend who constantly bullied me and told me to travel, which helped a lot.
It turned out that I have millions of resources that are available at my fingertips. I just have to use them.
The problem when it comes to setting goals and “new year resolutions” is that it’s fun to make lists and set goals and talk about the future. It’s not as fun to actually do the work. Because it takes work.
It certainly wasn’t fun to look at my list from last year and realize that I didn’t do anything on it (besides move to Australia on the Work & Holiday visa – that I did).
I always want to do a million things at once but then end up being a couch potato, watching Netflix and OMG-I-Don’t-Even-Know-What-I’m-Doing-With-My-Life.
So I’ve decided that I’m going to focus my energy on one thing in 2015.
OK, that’s kind of a lie. I mean, I still have travel goals and I really do want to learn how to cook and ride an elephant and get fit and OMG-I-Don’t-Even-Know-What-I’m-Doing-With-My-Life.
But writing is at top of the list, and it’s what I’m going to focus most of my energy on.
And maybe even get paid for it, too!
Moving to Australia made me speed things up because the visa had an age limit. I thought, I better do this NOW or I’ll NEVER have the opportunity to do it.
Maybe my writing has an age limit, too? Well, let’s just pretend that it does.
I have a ton of books in my Kindle about writing, and I have a ton of books that I’m going to put on my Kindle about writing, which will hopefully give me the motivation & resources I need. I have the support system I need from a friend, and the support is more the just “You-Can-Do-It” but more like “Why-Are-You-On-Facebook-When-You-Could-Be-Doing-This-You-Jerk” support. I have a brain, a laptop, and a freaking Journalism degree. So what’s stopping me?
I’m determined to be a writer, even if I have to hand out unpublished manuscripts on the train to homeless people. And I hope with all my hope that I do not become one of these homeless people because I was all “live the dream sister”.
I know myself too well. I tend procrastinate. On everything. I tend to say I’ll do things and then never do them. When life gets be too much, or if I have other responsibilities, I tend to postpone my goals. I tend to postpone my life.
But this is a now or never moment. I’m going to focus on my one (BIG) goal, and finally cross it off my list.
Writing Goals For 2015
- Publish two blog posts a week (this is going to be a challenge because sometimes I can’t even publish a post per month!)
- Become a paid freelance writer (this is, without a doubt, going to be a challenge, especially if I want to make a living off of it.)
But if it were easy then everyone would do it.
I learned that the more I have on my list, the less I do.
All of this is easier said than done, of course. But I have a feeling that this time I will hold myself accountable and not get distracted by life or Netflix.
To be perfectly honest, I feel a little sad (and embarrassed) that I went through four years of college (and will be paying it off for the rest of my life!) and don’t know how to go about this. In all fairness, I wasn’t exactly taught “How to be a freelancer”, and more so “Get all the writing clips you can so you have a portfolio to show…..” I worked my ass off doing unpaid internships and writing for free during my college days. I have a ton of experience that I can put on my resume, but none of that makes me a freelance writer. In fact, if I remember correctly, I remember a professor telling his students to not start off as freelancers because it will be too hard and almost impossible.
If there’s one thing I’ve learned from the risks taken in 2014 and going after my travel dreams, it’s that anything is possible. You just gotta do the work.
So what the hell am I waiting for?
What are your 2015 goals? Are you like me and put way too much on your list and then never do them?